Hebrews 11:1 says, "Now faith is confidence in what we hope for, and assurance about what we do not see." Sometimes it is difficult not to wonder if your unborn child is OK when you can't see or feel him or her. I'm sure other pregnant moms-to-be have felt this way. On Wednesday, I went for a checkup at the OB. He used a Doppler to hear the baby's heartbeat. After finding it, and getting to hear that wonderful sound for about 2 seconds, the battery died. The doctor shook the machine around a bit--which of course did not help revive the battery--and then said, "Oh well, we know it's in there!"
Yes, we know "it's in there," but how is our child DOING in there? I experienced my first sickness during pregnancy this weekend. Ironically enough, I was just thinking the other day that I felt blessed to not have had any illnesses so far, as I know that pregnant women have decreased immune systems. That changed on Friday. It started at work with a stomach ache, then frequent trips to the bathroom. Once I returned home from work, the vomiting and fever began. It was not a fun night. I was worried about being dehydrated, about how that could affect the baby. I drank as much as I could (which was not much that first night), and prayed for the health of our baby. I still felt bad yesterday, but was able to drink plenty of fluids and even eat some soup. Today I am feeling much better and eating some solids.
Just as it takes faith to believe in a God that we cannot physically see, it takes faith to believe that God is in control of this baby that we can't physically see. He is taking care of our child, just like He took care of all the miraculous details that went into conceiving him or her. Since I am a "planner" and like to be in control of things, it is not always easy for me to have faith, and I have a tendency to worry. But God is growing me, and bringing me into a sweet place of trusting Him and relying on Him rather than on myself. And that feels great!
Quinn's actual age
Quinn's adjusted age
